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I finally have an interview tomorrow at Speedway. I need a job, were struggling for money and im bored sitting at home cleaning all day. We went to the parents house for dinner last night, the food was amazing as always. I try to help with dinner in anyway i can, set the table and put the food on the table, stuff like that, i like trying to help. I spent time i was there hanging out with tom tom, we played fable on xbox and i watched two movies. It was nice hanging out with him. its been awhile. its nice to come home and feel relaxed and comfortable and not worrying whos going to be there. I love my new place. its so peaceful here. the dogs behave, We feel like a married couple. Bout time. lol. well thats it for today or until i think of something else to write.

Its Been Awhile

So since the last time i wrote a lot has happened. i got married and i moved and quit my job. which i am currently am looking for a new one. Champ is getting bigger, the dogs are happy in their new house, and the house is coming together. its taking longer then expected because im sick. Ive played matchmaker and its blowen up in my face twice now. So im done with that and the people as well for now maybe. the ones i currently "hooked" up are my husbands brother and my friend. they have been coming over and staying over on saturdays. this pasted saturday ive decided that its best only to spend time with them in a non stay over setting. Since were all together on sundays for family dinner anyway. i feel bad for saying it but i dont want to go into detail why.

Always Hit A Wall Called LIFE

I know have to say welcome to my hell, things up til now have been fine (i guess), Theres a new member of my family, his name is Champ, i had a pampering party with my friends and family which went well for the most part, i got yankee vs indians tickets and sat behind/beside home plate which was so awesome, i had such a good time, still work to much and i hate my job with a passion and im looking for a new one as i type this out, THEN theres yesterday, i told my boss ahead of time that i needed to leave early on sunday so i found someone to cover me for my breakfast shift so i could decorate cakes, cause sunday is our cake day and i didn't want to leave them with nothing, i HAD to be out of there at 11:30 i didn't get to leaave until 12:30, i don't ever ask my boss for much, and i do things for him all the time even though i hate it, i wanted to take the whole day off, but i was being considerate enough not to, so i was late to what i had to do, GREAT! my boy was mad at me and i was pissed off, all i could do after screaming was cry and i did. After that all happened i went to the event and went to his parents house, where we told his dad that we wanted him to check on the car, he drove it around and checked it out and told us we need to take it somewhere and have it checked. Ding Ding, i called my friend and asked if her dad can look at it, Greatly enough he has it at his shop now. His parents gave us a car and within the same hour of taking ours to the shop, that one took a crap. We now have no car. After the day from hell we come home to relax and sure enough my boy went on the computer and he got an email saying that im cheating on him. adding to my perfect day, he knows its a lie but im still pissed and it is a lie, i would never cheat on him, i love him to death, i can't stand to be away from him and im alway with him. my title still stands im Anti Drama but it still rides on my back.

Less Stressed

Yay! i have finally kicked my butt in gear, my wedding is in august and i was falling so far behind and have had extremely bad luck as of this far in planning it, First and always have restricted funds and are having trouble paying and getting what i want. Then my photographer who was an amazing guy fun to be around he took my senior photos and i fell in love with his work, sadly in december i received a phone call from his wife while i was at target, she told me that he had a heartattack and didn't make it, i was stunned and extremely depressed . So i needed by default to find another photographer. Then after i found out i fell into a slum and didn't focus on anything at all. Not good considering the limited time to reserve and plan everything. But something hit me and hit me hard so ive been in high gear searching and planning. In a matter of one afternoon i have managed to find a Dj for the reception hall that i finally booked in Feb, and after going to the huge bridal show in Jan, i have found a photographer. Yay! All i need to do NOW is find a dress, reserved tuxes, start invitations, completely finalized the guest list and stop putting people on and taking them off, finish registering to places for the bridal shower, etc. But im excited to know that whatever helped me kick my butt in gear im glad because if not there would be no wedding : (

I know

I know its been awhile since i last wrote anything, but one i keep forgetting that i have a blog and two im working seven days a week and planning my wedding, which is harder than expected and im falling so far behind, its not looking to good, i'll just be so glad when its all over.

Enough Is Enough

I have had enough, i finally worked up the nerve along with a little help to kick my roomate out, im worried he is going to do something but it is time, i have re'enforcements to back me up, i have my friends randomly stopping by to check on the house, my land lord is being informed and so r the neighbors just in case, and if it comes down to it the police will be called as well. I mean business, my life is one big stress ball after another, and hes living here scott free, and im paying for everything. u would be pissed off to.

Trendy No No No

So i heard some sad news this morning, my favorite local band (TRENDY) that ive followed for 8 wonderful years has called it quits and went there seperate ways, this makes me sad but i understand there reasoning, and i will follow Aaron and the boys in their own shows, I wish all of them good luck and the best of wishes, Im going to keep the memories alive and kicking. And i'll still blare there music in my car and at home, I remember at one show they came out in prom dresses and ended the show that way, it was so fun. And at there CD release party for Stupid Generation they had Lucky Boys Confusion open for them. Now matter if i have their cd's or not i would always buy another one just to support them, and i kept them all, It seems today that all the best bands are ending. but i hope that they continue to rock with success.

So now im on my own, disguarding sence and reason, i might stand alone, ill suffer for what i believe, although you can't agree, i know some day you'll see, what i can't let go, and i know that you wanted it to, but i can't live my life just for you, sometimes i think my logic turned to fantasy, sometimes i think my life got rearranged, but i know i can't look back on broken dreams, sometimes i think i'll never be the same,

Try not to forget, the places that ive came from, don't want to regret, the someone that i could have been, but maybe i can't win. maybe i can't lose, its something that i have to know, and i know that you wanted it to, i can't live my life just for you, somnetimes i think my logic turned to fantasy, sometimes i think my life got rearranged, but i know i can't look back on broken dreams, sometimes i think i'll never be the same,

Sometimes i think my logic turned to fantasy, sometimes i think my life got rearranged, but i know i can't look back on broken dreams, sometimes i think i'll never be the same,

SOMETIMES I THINK I"LL NEVER BE THE SAME!!!

Above Song off the Stupid Generation Cd

Trendy Will be Missed..

P.S. I'm so drunk she said, Lost my sence of judgement, Don't take advantage of me, I'll show u to my room.

(all songs are by trendy and are based on me listening to them and writting down what i hear, they may not be right but i tried.)